March 11, 2010
After a long morning in the emergency room and my back pain increasing. I refused to leave without knowing that the baby growing inside of me was ok. You see 3 weeks early I realized I was once again going to have a life growing inside of me. It seems odd to think I didn't realize it sooner. Having done this 5 times before. But between work and thinking I had the flu like the kids I just kept going. But I have never with any of the kids felt this type of back pain and something told me it wasn't right.
So the emergency room nurse first tried to get a heart beat and got nothing, so an ultrasound was order.
Dewayne was asked to wait and I was taken a few floors up for the ultrasound.
A very young lady started my ultrasound only to quick leave and return with another young lady. After several minutes they again excused themselves and returned with an older lady, this time the first young lady drying the tears from her eyes. As a mother of 5 of course I knew something was wrong, so I listened. I could hear, baby A and baby B, no heart rate confirmed. By then I was scared and upset. I said you both are making me very nervous. The older lady asked me, have you ever been pregnant with twins? I said No! She said well honey you are now but something is wrong with one of them, well DUH!
She asked if anyone was with me and I explained yes my hubby was asked to wait down stairs. She said we’d get you back then as quickly as possible.
I don't think I have ever been so confused in my life, how could I loss one and one be fine?
The dr explained what he could and asked if he could call my obgyn. Thankfully they were able to see me right away. Dr M quickly did another ultrasound and explained the differences and showed me my lost little one.
Its taken me weeks to realize that God had other plans and that I need to make sure this little one inside of me is healthy and to move on. Thankful I have such a great support system its made things easier.
The good news is so far the suriving twin is doing well and on April 27th we'll know the sex of this little one.